Emotional Distress

I am emotionally distressed
 Or maybe it is just you causing me this stress 
See you called me your queen and demanded to be my king
 But the feelings between us were never that serious
 You painted pictures of you and I
 But always declined to give me a reason why
 Building walls to keep me away but always knocking down my walls anyways
 And leaving the damages for me to pay
 Then still begging me to stay
 I cant I cant
 I just cant win with you
 There is no ‘us’ in your equation
 Just a you over me dividing us down to nothing
 The calculus of your being is too complicated for me to solve
 How can you evolve from feeling nothing to showing feelings so complex
 I’m so heavily vexed with this ‘we’re just friends’ relationship
 You treat me like a friend when we’re out
 But fuck me like a lover when we’re under covers
 Behind closed doors you tell me I’m yours
 Expose your heart to be connected with mines
 Before cutting the lines
could you read between them
 I don’t want to chase you away but it’s getting hard to tell you otherwise
 But you tell me you wish to stay
but my heart is ready to finally feel okay
 See the day you finally walk away is the day I can let you go
 But you can’t..so I can’t
 And I’m just left with these twisted feelings that cause me to feel nothing but sorrow
 I smile to cover up the pain but it always comes back stronger tomorrow
 Every day you present me with a new struggle
 And today I’m looking for a way to overcome this stress
 But until then I’ll just remain emotionally distressed.
 - Authentic Jay