What If

What if I told you how I really felt
How even though we haven’t made anything official yet
I saw myself as yours and only yours
And how I even gave up on all the others

What if I could only picture you in my future
Because no one else could make me feel the way you do
And because you make me so happy
That I couldn’t possibly live without you

What if I said that when you showed me
That you could accept me for me
It made my heart flutter
And that was something I had never experienced before

What if I got down on one knee
And said it is you who I want to be with
For the rest of my life
Could I just be your wife?

What if I told you how hard it was for me to write this
And how all of those thoughts made me lose sleep
Because there was still a possibility
That you didn’t feel the same way

What if I kept this to myself
And let things go on as they are now
Only to live the rest of my life
Wondering what if…

- Authentic Jay