Contradicting Struggle

I am a real life contradiction
Speaking so much hatred towards love and commitment
But still accepting it with opened arms everytime it comes around
Testifying about the single life
While allowing someone to call me their future wife
Refusing to reveal my own emotions
While becoming upset with the fact that they won't say ' I Love You'
Accepting my own faults
Yet still screaming hate towards someone who posses the same faults as my own
I am that thin line between love and hate
But maybe i'm not a "real life contradiction"
Maybe I'm just an undecided person
Who refuses to view the point from oneside

- Authentic Jay